I’m not bitter

I am writing this entry only for 1 reason..YOU
will know..and please stop itu..poor to yrself..kesian diri anda..saya sangat kesian kan diri anda…(sorry I terpaksa curi masa kerja just for
YOU…also this entry ditujukan to anonymous yang annoying itu,sesiapa yang ikut my blog, tentu tau what I mean..

People like to think that I'm just bitter, that the scowl I carry upon my lips is a sign of some general disgust that I hold for the world. But those who know me best, know me better. They know that I am not a creature filled with bitterness and hate, but a creature filled with love, who is simply selective in who he spends it on.

Those who add to my life and enhance my existence, I cherish, those who would take away from it, I vanquish.

But before you call me bitter,
say it in front of those I love and
who love me, say that before those who have earned my trust and my companionship, say it before those who will prove you wrong.

For I can assure you dear erroneous fool, I don't have a problem with the world, just you. Just you and those like yourself who would drain me of my time and resources. I hate that and why shouldn't I? It's my duty and my will to live that causes me to despise that. It's the same that causes me to love those who contribute to my existence.

So while I may be a bitter human being, at least rest assured that I don't discriminate, I don't blanket and I don't hate needlessly. Rather, I choose my friends very wisely and those who are the closest to me understand the value in that.

But u know what? After it all, as much as it hurt, as much as I didn't want to go on, as hard as it was to just keep going day to day, it was worth it. I'm stronger,I'm more confident even though sometimes I became low confident. I razed myself to the bare bones and built myself back up again, based on no one but myself and what I felt was right. My conscience is clear, which is more than some can say. I've a great place, furnished out of the guilt of the other. I'm building a life that I'm proud of.

I have some
great friends that showed me that I could trust. I have since become a whole person in my own right, and am ready to contribute my own spark of insanity to a relationship with another whole person. I've got a great friend and lover who I've connected with in ways that I never could have a year ago. n I'm free to see what life has to offer...

So thanks, my clueless partner of so many years...if u hadn't been so selfish, so cluelessly cruel, so ignorant of the consequences of ur self-involved actions, I wouldn't be where I am today....and am liking where I am.

I'm the same way. There are people around me who think my favorite subject

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