Hi there...
I've been contemplating on making a blog for quite some time and I'm trying to improve my blog as well.. My blog is also a place to share all my thoughts , my feeling,what happened around me..and everything came out of my mind...
Who ever have been visiting my blog, thanks so much..

May 31, 2010

I love breastfeeding!!!

I love breasfeeding….wahhhh.ni bukan nk promote..just wanna share how happy I am 4 breastfeed my son 4 almost 8 months – 19 jun ni baru masuk 8 bln- a week before,hati mula risau..dia belum mahu botol..

Mcm2 la dugaan nak ajar dia minum susu ibu ni through bottle..dia menangis,ibunya pn nangis.. tgk.mcm2 putting guna.tapi dia tak mau..so sad.. macam mana tiba-tiba 3 hari sebelum mula kerja, dia pandai guna botol.lega hati amat sgt..thank god..

And now, still breastfeed him, hari2 pump di office using my Medela Harmony Breast Pump..before this pernah guna pureen manual pump.. I prefer by using manual pump, i also wanna try electrical too, but manual is fine rite now..

Sekarang dia dah mula makan solid food.seronok tengok dia makan.. baba & ibu sayang Muhammad Adam Israfil..
madela harmony breastpump

manual pureen breastpump

My miscarriage

I want to start off by saying I am deeply sorry to anyone who has had a miscarriage & it is my experience as it happened and some of it I'm sure will be hard to read, as I found it very difficult to write........

It was nearly 2 years ago and I was 7 weeks pregnant at the time. This is I found very distressing let alone painful. I started bleeding on Saturday. It wasn't bad, no cramping or anything . We went to doctor,the ultrasound saw on the screen that the baby was measuring six weeks and had no heartbeat. Apparently the baby had died soon after we found out that we were expecting, but since I didn't have any bleeding or cramping, we had no knowledge of this.

I became very depressed and wanted to stay at home and hide. I found it awful when I saw people shout at there children when I so desperately wanted them. I feel as though I will explode. In the past people have said things like: "It was for the best" or " God must have a plan" or "Are you going to try again?" It hurts

By that time,my husband and I are still trying and I sometimes get symptoms that I had when I was pregnant and so wonder if I am pregnant again only to get my period and then I feel the loss and upset all over again. I hope that we will be successful sometime soon, but who knows. I resent it when people say to me `it will happen` as there is no guarantee that it will, and I feel this response is more about them being uncomfortable than about trying to show support. This may seem a negative viewpoint, but many months after my experience I am still suffering. I have found it extremely helpful to share my thoughts and feelings here and I hope this helps others. I just wanted to say that unless you have been through a miscarriage then you really don`t understand.

My husband have been extremely supportive and I believe this will get easier for me..thanks abg... At that time ,I'm doing a lot better then . . .I can at least talk about the baby without bursting into tears. . . .I can't bear to go through yet another miscarriage. My husband said that I shouldn't even think about that..

At 21st January 2009, my husband and I finally were blessed by finding I was pregnant again.We both was very excited. I am take a good care this 2nd pregnancy.. It is hard to lose the little one you have been carrying inside of you. It`s like losing a very big part of yourself and the emptiness which follows is like no otherI have written it for me, so if no one reads it I don't mind, if you have read it, please don't criticise as this is about my experience and is very emotive for me

Faith Hill - There You’ll Be

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see your soul
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

May 20, 2010

3 days more

3 days more our 2nd anniversary…can’t wait for my dearest husband…yeah…yet..he’s coming back today..
Oh, the love that I love…
Abg cepat la balik…huhu..adam israfil tak sabar nk jumpa..huhu

May 19, 2010

Today our son turns 7 months old! .

God, has blessed us.
Today our son turns 7 months old and the alternative makes me realize that I can do this. Even though there will be many tears through out this, many angry days, sad ones and joyful ones. I do believe that God has a plan for us and for our son and as we wait to learn what that plan is, I am finding a patience I have never, ever known. I am learning what is really important in life. I am forever changed by this beautiful boy God has given me. I know my husband is as well, - though he is not here rite now- …
Actually, I am pretty sure a lot of people are changed by him. I do know that is part of his purpose here on Earth. He is seven months old today. Me, how our lives have changed in seven month. There is a beauty in all of this that comes with seeing just how precious life really is. When I see him smile, I see beauty...

Happy Seven Months To My Dearest Son.! ibu dan baba will be there every step of the way.

May 18, 2010

need some idea plssss...

For the time being, I have no idea what 2 write or add 2 own blog..it’s almost 3 weeks since I’ve create my blog & it still empty without anything..

I rasa i mungkin dah ketinggalan zaman, sebab baru ada blog..

Actually I have 5 days more to my 2nd anniversary and still wondering how is going on..whether giving the present or sweet candle light dinner which is my luvly husband love most…
Can’t wait for my dearest hubby coming back from Terengganu this Thursday..